karung guni daughter
She seems to have inherited my hoarding habits, squirrels away everything bestowed: fast food toys, birthday cards, pencil cases, pins. Turns feral when I suggest that scraps of hastily scribbled cat cartoons might be better off recycled. If a fly were to expire in her tea, she’d save it in a jar (next to the hapless grasshopper, the bee) never mind the crumbling crayon portraits, paper art. This is a battle I cannot win, not with my roomful of shelves stacked with books, files, notes from 1986 propping up the crowded writing bureau: the jetsam of a life at sea with words, salvaging from ink and page a kind of driftwood shape, flotation. How else to keep track of where you’ve been? As if I’m even clear what keeps or what is worth keeping. Already the precinct trees are being cut down. A wave of prefab hoarding has scrubbed the next street clean of flagging skylines. So let her cherish a little of what is less than recent. Let her favour the crack in her favourite mug, just below the lip, the stains and stretch-tears in her purple sark, her bobbing buoy of uncombed hair, her deadpan voice when she hands me an old, used envelope festooned with faded stickers, tells me to hold it forever.
04 April 2014 00:35 hours
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